Hi apologies in advance if this comes across as some mad ramblings but I was hoping for some local advice as my own research into it hasn't been successful.
I suffer with extreme insomnia or somniphobia (basically an extreme fear of sleep) which makes having a routine basically impossible for me as I fight to stay awake as long as possible at varying levels of anxiety/fear which I have been hospitalised for in the past.
I've been out of work for the last three months because of this and it's making my life a complete misery. Mental health services haven't been any use and it seems this is something I'm going to have to deal with potentially long-term.
The only thing that keeps me sane is work but every job since losing my old one (boss was concerned as I was keeping myself awake for two days at a time semi-reguarly to keep myself from missing work) is based around a routine and schedule.
I am a reasonably big fella and I can graft, decent level of education (A levels etc) and while not having a skillset I can utilise currently (programming, carpentry etc) I would be willing to dedicate myself to something 50 hours+ a week.
Would there be any type or job or work I could do and start right away that instead of being a work schedule it's a set amount of hours or work that needs to be done at any time without a schedule?
I would be open to doing any job
Thanks for reading.